Could be Over, Could be Another Chance

I knew what you want. 

Due to my stay in Australia, I have nothing else I can do to impress you. 

I know it is bull shit to say all these but, I am not asking for excuse.

thanks for giving me a chance to have tell you what I have been hiding for a long period. 

Really is a Misunderstanding

I have no right of complaining about the consequence because I am the party who has done the mistake. The mistake is just happened without my knowledge.

When the time I received your message, I really feel down but I have already known that you really not happy yesterday. 

We knew each other for a period of time and I can say that I know what you care for and what you do not mind about. 

I do not know what I can do to compensate you,but, surely, I want to do something for you in return of being kind and honest to me all the time. Either in a good or bad circumstance. 

See you when you are back and I hope I can treat you with good dinner. 

Thanks you always because you show your caring to me and I have not done anything yet.

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心情日记

凌晨12点19分，你在做些什么？

我在听着光良的《我们的故事》

我们已经是错过的爱情吧，相信你已放下一些老早就该放下的故事

只是我一直还在执着，执着于你会回头看看我，把手交给我

时间点不对，我也没法实际上为你做什么

比起以前，成熟不少的我，狠狠了解，勉强是没有幸福的

这一刻，想把隐藏在心里的那句话，告诉你

有我还这， 爱着你

Every time I am preparing for Exam, I start to miss my lovely Family

 These two courses are my very last exam in study. In next semester, I only have to complete an Industry Research Report before I can graduate.

That's all, Guys. I am done for my study. Never think of attending University. Rather, I wish that I am able to take CFA exam after I start work because I need income to be able to enroll into that exam. That is the way of increasing your value in banking and finance sectors. 

University Exams are terrible. They kill a lot of your brain cells and just testing how good memory you are. 

Giving you tonnes of lecture contents, the lecturer expect that you can store everything into your brain before entering the examination venue. A word, RIDICULOUS.

I want GRADUATE because I understand that study life is only seem easy for those who do not take serious in their academic performance.

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The Country We Are, Different, Less Topic We can be Same

Between our conversation, I realise that we have less and less topics to discuss. 

You are working full time and I am just a full time students. 

You face with money and investment, but, I am just facing books and lecture slides.

Isn't our gap is getting bigger because of the difference of what we are doing. 

I am trying to walk into your hardened heart and you starts to lose patient on me already.

I get nervous when you only throw four words at me after four sentence messages from me.

I feel unsafe but I could not tell you how worry I am. 

I am just worry of losing you.

Have courage to say you Love

I wanna show how much I can love her. 

I wanna know how I can treat her better even I am not there

I wanna do whatever I can make us closer

Tell her, you have a good feeling on everything now

Because I love, So I do

Because I love, So I do. 

Meaningful and precisely presenting what I feel now. 

Which stage I am, I do not sure.

But, if I do not move on, she will be few step further.

Could not Believe I am Flying Back to Malaysia after two week

This time is a bit special because I never can go back so soon after I came back to Melbourne two week ago. 

Now, I am waiting for the boarding. However, it is going to take another 30 minutes just to get everyone on board.

Fine, I have my hot chocolate at a cafe right beside the boarding room. 

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Everything is confirmed and certain. I am going back to Malaysia for my careers due to Visa restriction in Australia. Governments do not need Finance students to work for them.

I really love the life in Melbourne. Merely is because the life here is slow and peace. I can live in my own with less burden and better life style at here. Importantly, the paid here is extremely higher than in Malaysia. You cannot imagine how big the difference is. It could be a four digit difference.

Thats why many China people migrant to Australia even they could not speak fluent English because good place always attract people to live in.

I feel sad of leaving but, I feel happy of being together with my family, which is out of my initial plan. 

Times to move on with my study first, hopefully, the last study journey in my life.