I decide to speak out my illness

I decide to pick up my phone and ring someone. It is not healthy to keep everything inside yourself. Your body does not carry unlimited storage space. One day, it might explode and hurt you.

I really feel shock this afternoon. My hand is shaking and my thought is messed up. I cannot really focus on learning my job. I am totally out of the peace. 

Thanks Kent, for listening about everything. You must be patient and carry enough positive elements because what I said are all negative. 

I give myself a start, a hope and a wish. No more blaming.....Honestly, No more scolding.....

Another Sleepless Nights

I discover that I cannot easily fall into sleep in the past few days. 

I start to think of what I have to do to move into the next chapter of my life. 

I start to think of what I can do better for myself and others. 

I start to think of what I have missed out doing. 

生活可以很苦，很哭，很难

命运让我摆脱不了这一切

还是回到了原点

Happy Valentine Day

Happy Birthday to those I loved & I am loving

HappY ChinEse NeW YeaR

At the end, I decided to send her a wish for celebrating Chinese New Year. 

Maybe people think that I am doing something to keep the connection.

In fact, I have no any meaningful reason for doing that. I so far do not think of getting back.

I can only think that "Lets Send an important person a wish, who really treat you special before".

Happy Chinese New Year~

Is a new chapter of life

I am waiting for a new chapter of my life. I believe that it only does starting after I have worked as a full-time. 

It is difficult to hunt a job regardless of your education level. 

Giving up definitely is not a choice. Preparing for the change could be the best option under current circumstances. 

It is not surprise that people keep on asking you: Are you look for job? Have you been interviewed by some companies? Where do you want to work?

I have heard all these question throwing at me since I step in Malaysia's lands. 

My answer: Guys, I am looking for, Okay!

Obviously, they are not concern about you. But, this is just the single topic that they can bring up conversations with you. Nothing wrong because you are fresh graduate. 

Reading all previous old posts, which was posted 4-years ago

I was that immature and sensitive few years ago. 

I realise that you could not feel depress totally to everything that people told you. 

They might mis-judged you and misunderstand the meaning of your acts. 

Loneliness filled up my life actually and I really fall into minor depression as a student at that time. This is the first time of revealing. 

By that time, I do not really know the reason of being at Melbourne. I can persuade the same degree in Malaysia with a group of friends and families. 

But, I found the reason, which is more than one. 

Essentially, I have learnt how to take care of myself. Without a partner, I can still survive.  I know hw to organise and manage my life and works. 

I start to smile and laugh at the end. The truth is not that miserable. 

***

CFA exam will be sitting on next Saturday. Time runs out quickly and I am not fully ready. 

Turning on my study mode and pushing myself forward are necessary now. 

Sufferrrrrr........Holiday, where are you.

 

介绍一个超赞的播歌网

You can click the screenshot above and it will divert you to an assigned page. Enjoy random music and sometimes, you will discover the surprise of your day. 

Particularly, the songs being played at late night are more attractive. 

想了很多人生道理

Please allow me to write this post in Mandarin. Otherwise, the true meaning could not be delivered. 

1. 别逢人就说你的辛苦，因为关心你的会主动问你
2. 永远为自己留一条后路，因为你不知你几时会失去价值
3. 当你知道你没法改变她，就别改变，因为辛苦的只是你自己，而他还是那样
4. 不定时联系一些好朋友，他们都很愿意接你的电话，代表他们没忘了你
5. 当你还没清楚这个人，别掏心掏肺和他说，可能他永远不在意你说的
6. 自己要争气，伤心悲伤可以，一个晚上足够了，你不知道你何时离开这个世界，别浪费时间在那
7. 对于你所爱的，坦白和她说，也许她在等待，也许她只想放在一旁搁着，不管如何，你至少感觉得到，她想怎样
8. 面具是必要的在这个社会，只是要带上，就请你别让人看出他是一张面具，不是一张脸

我想，我好想放下了

The incident happened in 2 months ago. 

I thought I could not get out from it. In fact, it is not that hard when you have sufficient time. 

That's me, person who is more positive-minded. 

Sea diving really improve me a lot in all these. After diving, I feel that I am refreshed with a new set of life story. 

In the sea, the environment is so quite and silent. You are not able to talk, but, listen only. 

I told myself that I must leave all these negative matters on the seabed. I did for twice. 

Finally, I knew how to response to your message. Thanks for your caring.

I know that I am cruel in the message content. But, I never think want to waste the time and it is pointless when we are totally apart from each other. 

Give it a go when you know you cannot control it. 

Pics of our journey to Cairns

You're My Everything

最近迷上了这首曲, Everything

每个人都需要经过,认识,了解,原谅,分离

Being Busy with Work

I was busy with working in the past few days. 

The store's business was so busy recently with the excitement of iPhone 5S.

5c were so pity and have been staying at the back of store for many weeks.

Graduation Assignment is going to due next Friday. 

I gain more freedom after that. 

Some changes in my life soon...

Seem like everyone is dealing with the changes in the life everyday, including me. 

I have been surfing around internet to look for some permanent jobs in Malaysia. 

Surprisingly, there are a lot of job position has been available for fresh graduate. 

Customers and people ask me why not staying in Melbourne. I want but, I am not qualify. 

I have been going through decision making several times. I decided not to waste time and money at here for the residency and only look for the jobs after that. 

I understand that Malaysia is not even comparable to Australia. At least, it is my home country where I can never be a second class residents. 

PR is a attractive things. But, spending time with family is more valuable because you will not know when the family relationship can end (when one of them leave the world). 

I have made up my mind overnight. My housemate and me are going back to own country at the same time.

Melbourne, I will not come back to you in a shot time.

Malaysia, I will be back permanently for you. 

I know I am not belong to you anymore

Everything is concluded.

I say we have differences because we never know what is the thing each other looking for.

When it is so uncomfortable at the beginning, there is no way to give a start. 

***

Life starts to have some changes. I have to know how to confront with them. 

Since I am going to graduate soon, I have to get ready for the next stage of my life. 

Going to leave Melbourne in less than 3 months, I will miss this place because I have been spending 4.5 years at here. 

Melbourne is full of sadness, happiness and working moments.

But, I think that I can do better in Malaysia.

I really meet a very good Manager

Honestly, I meet a very good manager in my workplace. 

She is friendly and caring towards employees. 

I am not fast-learning person who is able to pick up quickly. 

I strive not to leave behind, but, I always cannot go beyond what my ability. 

I learnt a lot from her. The ways of managing people under you and the ways of handling the tough situation. 

I am going to leave my job in less than 3 month times. I know that this is the time I want to do better. 

Set a goal. Help boss earn more connection and help manager to lessen her work. 

I understand that people who give you tough is the group of improving you. Hopefully, they can stimulate you to realise your potential. 

Mrs A, Thanks for everything........