i admit that i still concern about you

once you appear in front of me , everything becomes unstable. it is not your fault . it is my mentality problem. why it happaned upon me. i always can find out you in the group of stranger . i can notice you even i close my eyes. i tried to look for you but i turned my head quickly so that it wont be notice by you. i did the rubbish and meaningless things.haiz..my heart beat is fast when somethings related to you appear in front of me . i am not no purposely to do that. everything come suddenly. i can't even handle it well. i no want to contact or talk to you , because i scare i cannot control myself from loving you.