Sunday, May 24, 2009

Sadness is starting to appear after I have tried many times to deny the truth

The speed of time runs is so fast until out of my expectation. Less than 1 month has to be gone before I depart to Melbourne. My dad just come back from Vietnam. He looks tired and sleep. I do not talk much to him because I have known that he does not want to talk. He needs to sleep for resting himself.

By looking at him, I start to feel much guilty. At here, I am not going to explain further about the situation. My dad had sacrifid a lot for his family. Beside supporting him mentally, I have nothing to do in order to help him.

As a son, I admit that I spent a lot of his money which is earned by his hard work. The money is made up of sweats and bloods.

I searched the information about the house rent just now. The rent is so high. In my memory, none of the house at Melbourne charges less than AUS$200 per week for rent. A0t least, RM2000 has to be paid for rent in a month.

I have a dream or promise to myself. I will not come back to Malaysia without a succeed. But, can i make it ? I am not sure about it. Hopefully, I will not rely on my father in finance after I have graduated from University. I do not want to be parasite of my father.