Regarding the relationship, I never want to force after I have tried.
I cannot say that I have tried very hard to get her heart because we are so far apart.
I have no ways of demanding for love from a girl .
I pretend and cover my real feeling so that I can act more gentleman and generous in the sight of girl.
I never reveal the truth of myself to a person I like. That is lack of sincerity as you said.
I do not know which way of talking to you because I fear that I will lose control of myself.
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I have registered for CFA and start my revision period.
No matter how demotivated it is, I need to have one reading each day to complete the schedule.
Kind of investment on expertise and the first time of supporting myself in education.
Dad and mum have given up a lots of valuable things on my education to succeed their son.
I never want them to feel regret.
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Life is not hard yet. Never stuck yourself in a corner because it won't solve the problem and clear trouble.
I strongly recommend a open heart for yourself. Accepting who you are and stop pressing yourself, you can find another source of happiness and satisfaction.
Never satisfy, you never gain value from life because you never feel happy on what you have.
Life can has plenty of sadness. But, it does not mean the full of your life.
Do this for me: open yourself more to others, as your bro, I never look at how thin you are
I just want to know how happy you are.
Love you, Sis