When I feel alone, I like to stay in a space with people I do not know

Regarding the relationship, I never want to force after I have tried.

I cannot say that I have tried very hard to get her heart because we are so far apart.

I have no ways of demanding for love from a girl .

I pretend and cover my real feeling so that I can act more gentleman and generous in the sight of girl. 

I never reveal the truth of myself to a person I like. That is lack of sincerity as you said.

I do not know which way of talking to you because I fear that I will lose control of myself.

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I have registered for CFA and start my revision period. 

No matter how demotivated it is, I need to have one reading each day to complete the schedule.

Kind of investment on expertise and the first time of supporting myself in education.

Dad and mum have given up a lots of valuable things on my education to succeed their son. 

I never want them to feel regret.

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Life is not hard yet. Never stuck yourself in a corner because it won't solve the problem and clear trouble.

I strongly recommend a open heart for yourself. Accepting who you are and stop pressing yourself, you can find another source of happiness and satisfaction.

Never satisfy, you never gain value from life because you never feel happy on what you have.

Life can has plenty of sadness. But, it does not mean the full of your life.

Do this for me: open yourself more to others, as your bro, I never look at how thin you are

I just want to know how happy you are.

Love you, Sis

She said a right thing about me

I never know that someone can just exactly describe what I am doing. 

Confronting with something sad, I always tell myself that I am fine and alright. 

I never cure my wound and I choose to forget the pain temporarily.

When the wound is hurt again, I repeat the same process.

I thought that I learnt, but, I am not. 

At least, I know there is someone can interpret my mind, which is not Y....

对你，我会把你放在心上

Unexpectedly, I told you everything. I never plan so far....

I filled my time after that with sport, working and seeking jobs. 

As you said, I only pay attention to myself. 

Undeniable, I really feel relief after that. Hiding something you do not wish to is so far.

Calling you every time and hear your sound. I always have the intention of showing how much I miss you.

In the past few years, I have killed this thinking with tonnes of excuse. 

You never wrong. I am lack of sincerity and action. Everything is pale.

我只能说：没有刻骨铭心，哪来回忆不断

I am not death. I can feel and sense. At least, you are part of my life.

Simple romance is enough for me......

Could be Over, Could be Another Chance

I knew what you want. 

Due to my stay in Australia, I have nothing else I can do to impress you. 

I know it is bull shit to say all these but, I am not asking for excuse.

thanks for giving me a chance to have tell you what I have been hiding for a long period.