It was a miserable week

I suffered a lot from the painfulness of my leg. 

I cannot walk properly in workplace and I cannot even drive my car to anywhere. 

I was locked in my room for nearly a week without doing anything. 

At first, I did not plan take any leave before my probation is over. But, I have no choice and apply for either MC or annual leave. This happens unintentionally. 

Luckily, my boss understands that and I happy to pick up his call in case he need any support for the questions from Auditors. 

***

This is first time I feel that auditing is not a nice work. You have to go through all the procedures and formula and find out the weakness or propose for correction. 

I was maid of the auditor because he asked too much questions. The truth is that our financial system is not stable and it is lack of consistency. 

There is no way of applying one way throughout the financial period. 

Auditors, I am pity of you. I understand that this is your job and roles why you are here. 

***

2 or 3 days off from work are such a wonderful matter. 

Happy Birthday Jayden

Today is my 24th Birthday. 

As expected (haha), my sisters arranged a birthday cake for me. 

I felt a lot better compared to last year's birthday because I was with my mum only in Melbourne. It was during Winter semester break. 

Thanks to all friends who spent times with me in the past couple of days. I really enjoy and wish our bonding can be stayed in my next year birthday. I  am looking forward that day. 

***

Life is tough to strengthen you up. To make your mental and physical stronger than those have a peaceful life. 

Thats why, life changes us.  If we never experience, we never know how pain it is, how desire we want to get out from the bad and how we can. 

If things cannot be work out immediately because it is not directly under your control, leave it aside. You just have to equip yourself with the knowledge and strength when it comes one day. Worries in advance will just depress you but not helping.

***

You never know your potential until you realise it

I went through the time of cleaning the messy. 

Sometimes, she will appear again in my mind. But, all those are just images. They could be something that I imagine. 

I am treating those memories as my past story, which should not be come back again. 

***

I start to take over massive tasks and involve in daily operation. The level of involvement is more than my initial expectation because I thought that I have not hand on on many areas yet. 

One of my senior colleague are going to quit in one month time. I have to cover whatever she did previously. 

***

Going for a trip is always my wish.  

The unpopular places could be amazing, is just that the public has 

not discover them.

I said what I want to say at that moment

But, people has the right of deciding whether to care or not care. 

I start to change my definition of a relationship due to the facts. 

Life cannot give you what you want in your mind. You just have to alter your parts whenever something go against what you think initially. 

My only hope is that my people can live in healthy and happy. 

Sharing is not always appropriate to maintain a strong relationship. Keep in Mind. Not everyone can accept what actually happens. 

I decide to speak out my illness

I decide to pick up my phone and ring someone. It is not healthy to keep everything inside yourself. Your body does not carry unlimited storage space. One day, it might explode and hurt you.

I really feel shock this afternoon. My hand is shaking and my thought is messed up. I cannot really focus on learning my job. I am totally out of the peace. 

Thanks Kent, for listening about everything. You must be patient and carry enough positive elements because what I said are all negative. 

I give myself a start, a hope and a wish. No more blaming.....Honestly, No more scolding.....

Another Sleepless Nights

I discover that I cannot easily fall into sleep in the past few days. 

I start to think of what I have to do to move into the next chapter of my life. 

I start to think of what I can do better for myself and others. 

I start to think of what I have missed out doing. 

生活可以很苦，很哭，很难

命运让我摆脱不了这一切

还是回到了原点

Happy Valentine Day

Happy Birthday to those I loved & I am loving

HappY ChinEse NeW YeaR

At the end, I decided to send her a wish for celebrating Chinese New Year. 

Maybe people think that I am doing something to keep the connection.

In fact, I have no any meaningful reason for doing that. I so far do not think of getting back.

I can only think that "Lets Send an important person a wish, who really treat you special before".

Happy Chinese New Year~

Is a new chapter of life

I am waiting for a new chapter of my life. I believe that it only does starting after I have worked as a full-time. 

It is difficult to hunt a job regardless of your education level. 

Giving up definitely is not a choice. Preparing for the change could be the best option under current circumstances. 

It is not surprise that people keep on asking you: Are you look for job? Have you been interviewed by some companies? Where do you want to work?

I have heard all these question throwing at me since I step in Malaysia's lands. 

My answer: Guys, I am looking for, Okay!

Obviously, they are not concern about you. But, this is just the single topic that they can bring up conversations with you. Nothing wrong because you are fresh graduate.