The first test of this semester will be due on next Wednesday. Thus, I am feeling very stress and pressure right now because I have not really cover the test’s syllabus perfectly.
I have been not sleep for a day. I rush to finish what I planned to. However, when the time of going into practice, I notice that I still can make a lot of mistakes, especially in MCQ. It makes me feel worry about the test in next week.
Going to Sport Centre later to practise badminton with my friends is what I want to do. I want to release tension and come back with a new myself. As such, my brain can be softer and process more intelligent than now.
I talked to my friend few days ago regarding some matters that I always avoid to face them. Now, I think the problem sources are more likely to fall on me, not others. I always conclude what the person does and make my own judgement without really consulting her. Maybe is because I am too afraid to be hurt. So, I always look at the person’s negative side But, I have understood that I hurt other at the same time when I was protecting myself.
Putting down my protection shell and walking out from the “hard” perception towards a person are what I want to do. I really hope that there are someone still willing to come to me. It is difficult to build up their trust and confidence on you. But, never try, never know. I do not want to feel regret in future.
You know what. I really get tired of studying life. The life does not contain any “colour” that can boost me up. My main task is to study and study after I wake up from bed. This is the trade off of wanting to earn a better future careers.
I wonder why other people who are students as well can enjoy their life at here so much. I cannot understand that. Definitely, there is one difference between the groups and me.
Saying Good Morning to Sun, Giving Big Smile to Everyone You Interact with in a day.
Freshly MInd…..