HERY ANG
MY DEAR FRIEND
purposely writing it in english
haha... a really long one
be patient...
Hey friend..
know you wil be heading to Melbourne on 20th June
coming soon...
when I realized that time flew faster then I can imagine,
this young boy already all grown up!!
I can't say you are a boy, a teen, or etc anymore...
you are going to be a MAN
a real Man~~
[I don't want a boyfriend, I need a real MAN]
haha remind me of Jolin Tsai, I think she's in sumwhere of Malaysia right now~
Oopss!! wrong wrong..it's tomorrow...during the time that we might be having fun, singing her song inside greenbox k-room...
really hope to catch her in flash!!! She's simply amazing~
shoo~ go back to the topic
just now went to your blog [that actually u ask me to do so] [to show me the song?] maybe...
"Insa"... wat a great song
then.... automatically... I read though the page
Scroll down.... Tears rolling in my eyes...
I'm not tryin to be emo ok?!
i swear, i'm gonna miss u... me and ahkent really gonna miss u!!
Rewind back to the past time
when we 1st meet each other...
I'm not sure is it during my Form3 or 4 that time
U came to my house with Yuan,
we 3 sat on the floor, starting to chit chat like asuk out there...
we had lotz of fun to share..
I can't remember how's the relationship started
One thing for sure, during that time u were complaining about La Salle and saying that you'll be transfering school to STAR...we had already made up as the closest friend...
What am i thinking right now is,
to be frank, I stil feel kinda sad and disappointed that my relationship with x.yuan wasn't that close as we were during the previous time..
i just feel like, "distance" really will change the reality
I stil can remember when i was in Form4 that time,
sum1 said this to me
"U and yuan aint going to be that close for years! that's impossible for friends to keep their relationship until that far~ because you and her will slowly lost contact when one the part starting her own life in the another place.."
this fella currently in england...he's bao xiang..
i guess...he forgot wat he had told me last time..
but i buried these words deep inside my heart..
why? because of the "impact"
that time, i was stubborn, i said
"i'll prove to u!! i'll prove that you are WRONG! This ain't going to happen between us, because you not understand us well...u too look down to our friendship"
I was the one who are wrong~
kinda sad... everytime i saw his email add on my msn list, he remind me of those words...
those "harsh" words...at least to me
just like a small needle that stuck inside my heart..
because wat he said was so real~
though me and yuan are not in a bad relationship,
i think...we both will acting a lil' ackward to each other, during sms or maybe phone calls
we haven't united for a long while...
so i guess this cause the gap between us... less contact, less conversation...
me and your sis... seem to be like following the "trend"
but i'm tryin to keep the warmth of our friendship
I was so so so excited when I receive your sis call few days ago~
we really have less coversation since...maybe last december.....
[DISTANCE] again ! ! !
I don't want our friendship to be "just like that"
I mean, I always want a relationship to stay longer, whenever I put my heart into it..
like yuan, ahkent, qun, your sis, and u..
I always wish that u guyz to learn the truth that I'm treating you all as my true friend...
and of course it's normal for human to hope that the other side will think the same way as they thought..
well... i know i can't make everyone to feel the same way, juz wish... haha
but at least i would like to let u guyz to know
how much i do appreciate u, and how much i feel so lucky that i met you guyz in my life~
Soulmate... just count you own how many in your life
we never want to lose one when we met the one..
because we know how difficult to find the another one, who really understand u, and willing to share your sour, happiness, boreness... your everything
i may not in the list, but
xiaoyuan, ahkent, ahqun, your sis, and of course you....are my soulmates~
I know wat u hate
I know wat u are tryin to deny but finally force to accept
I know it seems hard for u to face those dirty words from the foolish outsider
they are just jealous~ so let them be~
I always have a trust on u
u will definitely prove them wrong someday!!
u are going to be someone great, earn tons of money, earn respect from people
remember those who always look down on your own abilities
remember their face, together with their words...
i'm not asking u to take revenge on them in future [but if u wan, ahkent definitely will help u out haha=D], or add pressure on u
just want u to accept all, and make those ugly faces and words to convert into the another supportive elements in your life at Melbourne...
those elements will help you to grow stronger and be determine at there!!
but remember, not to convert all into negative energy, dun let it become a transparent tension..
take good care of your health, keep a healthy mind [say TAK NAK to lonely-feeling and pressure]
just enjoy your study life there..
widen up your view and mind
that will be the greatest gift to your dad...your family~
we all trust u, that u can do it !!
i love this saying "NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE"
i always repeat it to myself, whenever i feel hard..
I just learn that, there is always a POSSIBLE inside IMPOSSIBLE
liYen told me this last weeks.. I already addicted to this phrase,
now make me feel more impress
make me more respect to the person who created this saying..
to me, you are really a great guy..
a really gentle guy
I always notice the behaviour [espcially "gentle" part] of a guy
tak kira they are stranger or my close friends..
i found that there is no one who are perfectly a gentleman
i mean, the action that I (as a girl) can react it out, but as a guy, he can't,
then it will really make me feel that he is really sucks!!!
for example, push the door when u are walking out, at the same time hang on it, to let your friends or stranger nearest to u to go out
this simple action/manner, i always can't see a guy doing it..
or maybe sometimes when you are sneezing, they will automatically pass u the tissue for u if the tissue is just right in front of them...
walao eh~ the guyz i'd been noticing around...they won't do it for the ppl around them...
not gentle at all~
or maybe once they go out from the backseat of a car, [inside still got passenger], they wil just *BANG* close the door
all of these actions i can't tahan lah~~~
but i would like to praise u!!!!
u are indeed a GENTLEMAN~~~~~ really lah!! not bluffing~
now i can say that, among my friends and ppl around me,
they all failed jor... fail to be a "gentleman" in the translation meaning in my dictionary..
only u can consider to fulfill the meaning of "gentleman"
[but still not 100% lah! 80% pun belum sampai la~ can improve lagi~ haha!]
maybe u know the responsibility as a man..haha
ahkent ngam ngam pass nia... because to us, he gentleman la
but i don't think he will be gentleman in front asuk~ hahahahahahah!
i found that i was writing alot of craps instead of writing a sentimental letter to u
[this is not my intention] but u know my pattern, too alizap liao~
hahahahaha =D
maybe when u feel too free to do nothing,
u can come and spend your time to read this long long long writing...
anyway, we MUST keep updating ourselves oftenly!!!!
i know u will, u have a fancy on writing blog..
i know this is so convenience for u because your laptop work so well
[as comparation to my lao yar computer....]
but, I will try to update myself in my blog too~
i know nobody know that Eng Sai Peng owns a blog
haha! i didn't tell other ppl...because this place is more to like my diary space..
so... i hope my friends keep away from here...
I'm a noisy girl, lookz like love to share every lil' thing that i know...
but actually.. there's just a 2nd face of me to face the outside world
me too, a normal human being
there are lots more things that keep inside my mind
if i got the mood, [and time], then i will release myself at here
but if the timing is not right, then i will continue let it buried in my heart...
i hope i can be like u, can stuck most of your routines and stories inside your own space/blog
doesn't u feel excited when think of you, your son, or maybe your grandchildren to be reading your longlife stories someday in future?!
at least u leave something for and from u everyday...
sounds great.... great challenge for me... to keep updating myself in front of a computer haha!
arh~ i'm starting to talk nonsense things again..
in fact, i really wanna write these in sentimental ways..
wanna make your eyes with the tears rolling inside
i know i failed jor~
i don't know why it goes like this>.<" haha! hope u dun ignore it.. whenever your life full with boreness, plz read it again it takes time for u to read, but it took a long time for me to write it too!! hahaha!
ping ping an an at Melbourne
take good care of yourself
be more and more open, foreigners are very passionate
so dun be shy to make friends with them, no harm~
hmmm...and don't bring H1N1 back to Jenjarom..hahahahaha!!!
not cursing u la~
is warning u not to bring foreign girl back to malaysia eh~
abo she kena H1N1, u got the injection so won't kena, but we will kena eh~
when u are back, be sure u'd totally become a REAL MAN ! ! !
arh~ i will send u to the airport, if i got the chance~
and then, hopefully we all will have fun @greenbox 2mr
gonna take lots of pix..
i found that i rarely take photo with u ler..
never mind..if me and ahkent can go to the airport together,
then we should take a picture at there..
last farewell..