A Letter From Friends

THIS IS FOR U
HERY ANG
MY DEAR FRIEND
purposely writing it in english
haha... a really long one
be patient...

4th of June 2009

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Hey friend..
know you wil be heading to Melbourne on 20th June
coming soon...
when I realized that time flew faster then I can imagine,
this young boy already all grown up!!
I can't say you are a boy, a teen, or etc anymore...
you are going to be a MAN
a real Man~~
[I don't want a boyfriend, I need a real MAN]
haha remind me of Jolin Tsai, I think she's in sumwhere of Malaysia right now~
Oopss!! wrong wrong..it's tomorrow...during the time that we might be having fun, singing her song inside greenbox k-room...
really hope to catch her in flash!!! She's simply amazing~
shoo~ go back to the topic


just now went to your blog [that actually u ask me to do so] [to show me the song?] maybe...
"Insa"... wat a great song
then.... automatically... I read though the page
Scroll down.... Tears rolling in my eyes...
I'm not tryin to be emo ok?!
i swear, i'm gonna miss u... me and ahkent really gonna miss u!!


Rewind back to the past time
when we 1st meet each other...
I'm not sure is it during my Form3 or 4 that time
U came to my house with Yuan,
we 3 sat on the floor, starting to chit chat like asuk out there...
we had lotz of fun to share..
I can't remember how's the relationship started
One thing for sure, during that time u were complaining about La Salle and saying that you'll be transfering school to STAR...we had already made up as the closest friend...


What am i thinking right now is,
to be frank, I stil feel kinda sad and disappointed that my relationship with x.yuan wasn't that close as we were during the previous time..
i just feel like, "distance" really will change the reality
I stil can remember when i was in Form4 that time,
sum1 said this to me
"U and yuan aint going to be that close for years! that's impossible for friends to keep their relationship until that far~ because you and her will slowly lost contact when one the part starting her own life in the another place.."
this fella currently in england...he's bao xiang..
i guess...he forgot wat he had told me last time..
but i buried these words deep inside my heart..
why? because of the "impact"
that time, i was stubborn, i said
"i'll prove to u!! i'll prove that you are WRONG! This ain't going to happen between us, because you not understand us well...u too look down to our friendship"


I was the one who are wrong~


kinda sad... everytime i saw his email add on my msn list, he remind me of those words...
those "harsh" words...at least to me
just like a small needle that stuck inside my heart..
because wat he said was so real~
though me and yuan are not in a bad relationship,
i think...we both will acting a lil' ackward to each other, during sms or maybe phone calls
we haven't united for a long while...
so i guess this cause the gap between us... less contact, less conversation...
me and your sis... seem to be like following the "trend"
but i'm tryin to keep the warmth of our friendship
I was so so so excited when I receive your sis call few days ago~
we really have less coversation since...maybe last december.....
[DISTANCE] again ! ! !


I don't want our friendship to be "just like that"
I mean, I always want a relationship to stay longer, whenever I put my heart into it..
like yuan, ahkent, qun, your sis, and u..
I always wish that u guyz to learn the truth that I'm treating you all as my true friend...
and of course it's normal for human to hope that the other side will think the same way as they thought..
well... i know i can't make everyone to feel the same way, juz wish... haha
but at least i would like to let u guyz to know
how much i do appreciate u, and how much i feel so lucky that i met you guyz in my life~
Soulmate... just count you own how many in your life
we never want to lose one when we met the one..
because we know how difficult to find the another one, who really understand u, and willing to share your sour, happiness, boreness... your everything
i may not in the list, but
xiaoyuan, ahkent, ahqun, your sis, and of course you....are my soulmates~



I know wat u hate
I know wat u are tryin to deny but finally force to accept
I know it seems hard for u to face those dirty words from the foolish outsider
they are just jealous~ so let them be~
I always have a trust on u
u will definitely prove them wrong someday!!
u are going to be someone great, earn tons of money, earn respect from people
remember those who always look down on your own abilities
remember their face, together with their words...
i'm not asking u to take revenge on them in future [but if u wan, ahkent definitely will help u out haha=D], or add pressure on u
just want u to accept all, and make those ugly faces and words to convert into the another supportive elements in your life at Melbourne...
those elements will help you to grow stronger and be determine at there!!
but remember, not to convert all into negative energy, dun let it become a transparent tension..
take good care of your health, keep a healthy mind [say TAK NAK to lonely-feeling and pressure]
just enjoy your study life there..
widen up your view and mind
that will be the greatest gift to your dad...your family~
we all trust u, that u can do it !!
i love this saying "NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE"
i always repeat it to myself, whenever i feel hard..
I just learn that, there is always a POSSIBLE inside IMPOSSIBLE
liYen told me this last weeks.. I already addicted to this phrase,
now make me feel more impress
make me more respect to the person who created this saying..


to me, you are really a great guy..
a really gentle guy
I always notice the behaviour [espcially "gentle" part] of a guy
tak kira they are stranger or my close friends..
i found that there is no one who are perfectly a gentleman
i mean, the action that I (as a girl) can react it out, but as a guy, he can't,
then it will really make me feel that he is really sucks!!!
for example, push the door when u are walking out, at the same time hang on it, to let your friends or stranger nearest to u to go out
this simple action/manner, i always can't see a guy doing it..
or maybe sometimes when you are sneezing, they will automatically pass u the tissue for u if the tissue is just right in front of them...
walao eh~ the guyz i'd been noticing around...they won't do it for the ppl around them...
not gentle at all~
or maybe once they go out from the backseat of a car, [inside still got passenger], they wil just *BANG* close the door
all of these actions i can't tahan lah~~~
but i would like to praise u!!!!
u are indeed a GENTLEMAN~~~~~ really lah!! not bluffing~
now i can say that, among my friends and ppl around me,
they all failed jor... fail to be a "gentleman" in the translation meaning in my dictionary..
only u can consider to fulfill the meaning of "gentleman"
[but still not 100% lah! 80% pun belum sampai la~ can improve lagi~ haha!]
maybe u know the responsibility as a man..haha
ahkent ngam ngam pass nia... because to us, he gentleman la
but i don't think he will be gentleman in front asuk~ hahahahahahah!


i found that i was writing alot of craps instead of writing a sentimental letter to u
[this is not my intention] but u know my pattern, too alizap liao~
hahahahaha =D
maybe when u feel too free to do nothing,
u can come and spend your time to read this long long long writing...


anyway, we MUST keep updating ourselves oftenly!!!!
i know u will, u have a fancy on writing blog..
i know this is so convenience for u because your laptop work so well
[as comparation to my lao yar computer....]
but, I will try to update myself in my blog too~
i know nobody know that Eng Sai Peng owns a blog
haha! i didn't tell other ppl...because this place is more to like my diary space..
so... i hope my friends keep away from here...
I'm a noisy girl, lookz like love to share every lil' thing that i know...
but actually.. there's just a 2nd face of me to face the outside world
me too, a normal human being
there are lots more things that keep inside my mind
if i got the mood, [and time], then i will release myself at here
but if the timing is not right, then i will continue let it buried in my heart...
i hope i can be like u, can stuck most of your routines and stories inside your own space/blog
doesn't u feel excited when think of you, your son, or maybe your grandchildren to be reading your longlife stories someday in future?!
at least u leave something for and from u everyday...
sounds great.... great challenge for me... to keep updating myself in front of a computer haha!


arh~ i'm starting to talk nonsense things again..
in fact, i really wanna write these in sentimental ways..
wanna make your eyes with the tears rolling inside
i know i failed jor~
i don't know why it goes like this>.<" haha! hope u dun ignore it.. whenever your life full with boreness, plz read it again it takes time for u to read, but it took a long time for me to write it too!! hahaha!

Lastly, I wish u shun shun li li,
ping ping an an at Melbourne
take good care of yourself
be more and more open, foreigners are very passionate
so dun be shy to make friends with them, no harm~
hmmm...and don't bring H1N1 back to Jenjarom..hahahahaha!!!
not cursing u la~
is warning u not to bring foreign girl back to malaysia eh~
abo she kena H1N1, u got the injection so won't kena, but we will kena eh~
when u are back, be sure u'd totally become a REAL MAN ! ! !

arh~ i will send u to the airport, if i got the chance~
and then, hopefully we all will have fun @greenbox 2mr
gonna take lots of pix..
i found that i rarely take photo with u ler..
never mind..if me and ahkent can go to the airport together,
then we should take a picture at there..
last farewell..

See Ya

HI, Guys. This is the photo that we took at Melbourne Uni's Night market. It seem to be new for me to take this type of pciture.

Anyway, I made a failure in my test. All my marks are out, but none of them is considered as a satisfactory marks. Compare with last semester, I have became much lazier and take and thus, I take less seriousness in my study. The marks are the signal.

If there is a Wishing Tree in front of me, I want to wish that just let me be a normal person.......

Hey, Guys. I wil be not there for the coming days. The blog will be shut down too for some maintainance prupose. See ya.

When I was walking to school, I sang this song alone.

Sorry guys, another sad song and post again today. I would like to share with you all this song. It is a meaningful song with a complete and touching lyrics. Closing your eyes and listening to it......

When I was walking to school, I sang this song and I really thought that I got into this song. This is because there are tears flowing on my eyes.

我坐在咖啡店 落地窗的前面
雨水洒满整条街 和人们的脸
钢琴的黑白键 搭配过的和弦
我们的爱情 什麼和弦

是我太伤悲还是城市太灰
这样的台北还有什麼好留恋

没有错是我自私的举动
给我借口 让我这次能够彻底的放手
让我走 别让我 更痛苦的过
不让你伤的更重
I'll always always love you so

你表情好憔悴 强颜欢笑的脸
你那哭红的双眼 让我好心碎
我愿意 让你飞 不再对你留恋
别让我成为 你的侧脸

是我太伤悲还是城市太灰
这样的台北还有什麼好留恋

没有错是我自私的举动
给我借口 让我这次能够彻底的放手
让我走 别让我 更痛苦的过
不让你伤的更重
I'll always always love you so

伤得更重 伤得更重
也许我没有离开的理由
是我没用 无法守护著你一直到最后
别回头 答应我 你会好好过
让我默念一万遍
I'll always always love you
love you so

The bold red words represent the words that I want to speak to you. Is my useless for not accompany with you until the end.

I am being lazy for studying law.

What I need to do today is studying law. I have the test on thursday. So far, no one complaint that it was super duper difficult. Anyway, I want to try best in order to prevent any regretion later like Marketing Test.

I am probably free after this week because the last paper for middle semester exam is due on this Friday. I want to enjoyyyyy....

Plus, my cousins they all are coming over here to attend the graduation'ceremony. So, most probably I will join them as well. I want to talk non stop with them. ^^

Ok. Guys, I want to start my study now. If not, I will delay it again.

Ya. Last but not least, I want to say Happy Birthday to Wil. Today is his 20th Birthday. "He is older than me" ^^V

Anyway, I want to wish you all the best in your 20th year. Be healthy and Be happy...

Hearing this sad song, 猜不透

Sorry, everyone. I am going to shoot you all a sad song ever again.

I still carry the sad feeling. Maybe I am not so good in putting down what I should be. The bond is there. It can be fogotten. It cannot be abandoned.

At this point, there is no point to find out who are the wrong one and who are the right one. It does not mean anything.

I tend to express my feelings at here because I do not want to let it affect me later. I am going to study my lecture for exam.

I felt very happy that I had a good memory with you.

越是在乎的人，越是猜不透
Sometimes, you start to have no idea regarding the one that you care the most.

A great song. Sad, but meaningful.

Pyramid- Charice Studio version... A nice song hear in the morning

I am not ready, So, I failed

I am being lazy in preparing for the tests. That is, I failed to answer the marketing test today. I made a lot of mistake tht I should not. I lose a lot of mark because I accidentally picked a wrong answer. I do not know what am I doing.

I always think I can do well in handling my life. But, now it went into a mess. Everything was just overlapping and mixed together. I have known that I am not strong enough.

Lets have a good start tomorrow. Perhaps it is really a good start.

Busyyyyyy

Guys, I will be busy for this week and the following week because I am going to take my mid semester exam. It make me feel so nervous because each papers comprises at least 20 marks of the total assessment. Compare with last semester's one, it is much higher.

I woke up in the early morning today in order to finish my revision on Price and Market in a quick speed. This is my first time being the last minute study for the exam because I just finish the chapter 4 of Marketing. It looks like a 'Mountain'.

I notice that something hidden inside my body. Hopefully, it is nothing and temporiry existed only. I do not want to die so soon. My life is just started.

OK. I need to prepare myself to go school. Saying good luck to anyone who is going to take the exam or test too. Of course, saying good luck to myself for the very first test.

How Messy is my lecture note

I described this to Akent, that is one of the page of bible. Obviously, the lecture slide is skeleton. Other than principle and theory definition, it contains nothing. It means that actually you need to create your own slide by studying the text book. Also, you need to do some research externally. Google.....

I am going to have my very first test for Price and Market tomorrow. But, I have not study anything yet because I just end the revision on Marketing. I used 2 days to complete the chapter of consumer behavior because it is too long and complicated. T.T

Hey, Guys. I want to start my study already because I do not want to gain an 'egg' tomorrow. My refrigerator has enough of it. Anyway, I am alright. I started my new life. Even though I still carry something that I should not, but, I think they are used to remind me to live better.

Hope that you can living better than me although putting down it is so difficult for us.

Feeling Helpless

I started to feel helpless because someone who suppose to help you refused to help you. I need to figure out the answer by myself. Damn.

Now, I am waiting outside of the lecture hall and I reattend the lecture again because I did not catch the point.

Everything is not in order and I need to organise them back into the order I want.

Expensive Mamak Food

I am going to show you some photo taken when having the dinner.

Chia Lynn, Alex and Me went to Old Town Kopitiam Mamak few days ago for dinner. This is new branh at Melbourne and its mother restaurant was located at China Town.

Obviously, this is first time we went. When we reached there, we straight away walk in. A waiter stopped us and wanted us to wait at the entrance. But, there was no sign board at the entrance to ask the customer waited to be seated.

Anyway, I put down my name in the list of waiting. I think that they do provide phone booking.

You can notice a lot of malaysians there because everyone was seriously missing Malaysia's food.

So far the food's taste was acceptable. But, a scary part was the price only. If you convert Dollar back to RM, definitely you will feel shock because you need to pay thirty times more than Mamak's food in Malaysia.

Unfortunately, I forgot to bring my camera to there. Hence, the photo might look a little rough. Hope that they look clear for you all.

That all. 88. I need to go back to my study for marketing..

I really Miss Mamak. T.T

Fried Mee

Curry Mee

Fried Rice

Sitting at the corner of Library

Actually, I prefer to study at the corner of the building because I can obtain the minimum distraction. Because I came at 12 sharp and Carlton library just open, I am able to find a place that suit me the most.

I am being slow down for my revision because I spent the time in watching taiwanese drama. It really kill me. Luckily, the next episode is not so soon released. Hopefully, I can finish the revision totally before Sunday.

I took few bread as my breakfast only because I kinda busy with my study in the early morning. I bring a red bean bun to library too to prevent me from falling into sleep in a quite environment. ^^

Thats all, for a minor update. I will post out some food photo later if I have time. Saying Good Luck and Work Hard to myself.

I came to RMIT Main Campus at 9.30 a.m. Surprisingly, I could not enter the building because the automatic gates were locked. So, I had to wait at park there. Luckily, the weather is cool. If not, I will start to scold bad words inside my heart (surely). ^^

I felt so lazy to study. I want to watch Drama. I want to surf internet. But, those acitivities will slow down the progress of revising the course's lecture. T.T I have to put some controls on myself.

I am addicted to S.H.E song.

安靜了

I love this song a lot, especially the lyrics. hai.
I ever read a article. If you hear a emo or sad song in the early morning, it will bring down your mood for a whole day. But, never mind. I get used with sad song.

I have read your email. I felt happy that we two still can share with each other in the email. I do not know this kind communication channel will go for how long. But, I just hope that you are living happily although I am not there. I know that you can make it for yourself.




Lets provide your ear with a sad song.

April Fool

oppss. Playing Restaurant City

Hi, everyone. Today is April Fool. Wish everyone Happy April Fool. It is not a special festival for me and I do not really like this festival. Minor fool is acceptable, but please do not make people to worry about you unreasonably.

Today is my first day for Middle Semester Holiday. Anyway, I still need to spend my time for doing revision because the mid semester exam will be held after the holiday..

Thats all, a small update for my blog. I need to start my revision. ^^

I went to Cili Padi restaurant just now with Alex and Chia Lynn. This is my first time been there. It is a Malaysia's restaurant. So, we can eat most of Malaysian's food at there as well. ^^

Grilled Teriyaki Chicken. It looks small, it taste nice. ^^

Nasi Lemak Curry Chicken. Chia Lynn and Alex ordered this. I like it too.

My middle semester break is at the corner. It means that I am going to take Middle Semester Exam Papers too. T.T I have not prepare myself yet for the exam. Hopefully, the questions will not dry up my brain.

I suppose to have my lecture in afternoon tomorrow. But, due to the appointment with FM lecturer, so I have to go school at 8 morning. The lecturer will meet me at 10a.m. I just want to spend some time in library in doing revision. I want to make myself as busy as possible because I do not want to lose the concentration already.

Good Night, Everyone. ^^