The Country We Are, Different, Less Topic We can be Same

Between our conversation, I realise that we have less and less topics to discuss. 

You are working full time and I am just a full time students. 

You face with money and investment, but, I am just facing books and lecture slides.

Isn't our gap is getting bigger because of the difference of what we are doing. 

I am trying to walk into your hardened heart and you starts to lose patient on me already.

I get nervous when you only throw four words at me after four sentence messages from me.

I feel unsafe but I could not tell you how worry I am. 

I am just worry of losing you.

Have courage to say you Love

I wanna show how much I can love her. 

I wanna know how I can treat her better even I am not there

I wanna do whatever I can make us closer

Tell her, you have a good feeling on everything now

Because I love, So I do

Because I love, So I do. 

Meaningful and precisely presenting what I feel now. 

Which stage I am, I do not sure.

But, if I do not move on, she will be few step further.

Could not Believe I am Flying Back to Malaysia after two week

This time is a bit special because I never can go back so soon after I came back to Melbourne two week ago. 

Now, I am waiting for the boarding. However, it is going to take another 30 minutes just to get everyone on board.

Fine, I have my hot chocolate at a cafe right beside the boarding room. 

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Everything is confirmed and certain. I am going back to Malaysia for my careers due to Visa restriction in Australia. Governments do not need Finance students to work for them.

I really love the life in Melbourne. Merely is because the life here is slow and peace. I can live in my own with less burden and better life style at here. Importantly, the paid here is extremely higher than in Malaysia. You cannot imagine how big the difference is. It could be a four digit difference.

Thats why many China people migrant to Australia even they could not speak fluent English because good place always attract people to live in.

I feel sad of leaving but, I feel happy of being together with my family, which is out of my initial plan. 

Times to move on with my study first, hopefully, the last study journey in my life.

I believe I can handle it

Exam is around the corner while everyone is enjoying their 4-month holiday or busy earning money.

I have to keep myself in a small apartment to make sure that I cover everything before I go in the exam hall. 

Due to small class size, we are not going to have exam at MSAC, but, building 80.

Thanks for ever calling me out for dinner even I know all of us are busy. The initiative is important here.

Wishing me a good luck for both exam papers. I want to just leave Melbourne peacefully without any worry.

A Ice Heart, But with temperature

Been thinking the same question many times. I have not make up any mind so far. 

In reality, you have something to be sacrificed before you can obtain other. There is no win-win always. 

One of the happy news is that I asked the questions I want to know from her.......

Record of the Beginning of Trip

Now, I am waiting for boarding at Melbourne Airport. Flying to Tasmania is ever a dream for me.

Being there was my goal of 2012. Unfortunately, I was not able to achieve it last year, perhaps in 2013.

I like to travel in a small group, probably only two people.

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Reached Tasmania accommodation after several unexpected incidents at Airport. 

I am going to start my journey at here

想问她, 你过得好吗~真诚

我在一场电影里

看到了,有意思的这一句:

别为未来,而停止去爱一个人

做真心的自己, 

开心的时候就放开点笑, 

等到伤心的时候再大哭,

没什么大不了的~



没错,对自己真一点,才会对别人的真.

如果想爱一个人，就一定要相信童话故事

I found this phrase. For me, it is true. 

I believe you have found the one who love you the most. I feel happy of that and walk out from the dream.

Be a happy person to attend my graduation next week. I have to collect my gown and tickets for my family and friends. 

Everyone should find the way of comforting himself. Likes this: placing your hand on your heart and say it's okay. never mind. Then, hug yourself by placing your hand in a cross on your shoulder.

Found this romance song. I never leave you alone~

I never leave you alone | Muziboo

So tiring

am still busy preparing for the exam on both Monday and Tuesday paper.

I have taken two day off just to get myself ready for these two days.

Why there is a such things called exam !!!

I am not the right one for you, I knew

I knew that I am not the right one for you. But, I am human with feelings. I am not able to stop myself completely from caring about you.

Completing unlimited works in limited time

Sometimes, human must be placed in a critical situation before they can know how powerful they are. 

This is what I have learnt so far. The days to exam is less than a week and I have to absorb all the knowledge in the textbooks and lecture notes. 

I always come to the 24-hour lab to start my revision because I could not focus well at home. The study desk is too close to my bed. I rather lie down and fall into sleep. 

Exam! can you just pass by quickly.... 

Happy Graduation

I have just send a wish to you, Happy Graduation.

Everyone is graduating and I am going to have my own graduation soon. 

Let's work harder for our life because we have reached another stage of our life 

Brief update about what I am doing

I am back. I have been leaving from this blog for  a couple of months. Officially, my Master semester began and I had to catch up the syllabus every week. 

I am flying to Adelaide next week and I wish that I can complete the assignment before the trip. So that, when I am back, I have relatively lesser work to be followed up. 

I am busy working and studying at the same time. Earning money and studying should not be done at the same time. But, this is basically what I am doing. 

The purpose of doing a short trip is to visit my friends in Adelaide and put myself in a rest mode. I think that my life is nervous and stressful in Melbourne. Sometimes, you ever think that you want to leave the stressful environment for a short period and come back with a new oneself. 

I lower the expectation about everything because I do not want to feel disappointment. Others have their own way of doing things and of course, I have no right to stop them. Just let it be because it do not affect me.

I never want to explain to a person when you know that person is not interested in hearing anything from you. Maybe I could say something that the person want to hear all the time. Why I need to?

This is true. When the things has broken into pieces, you can stick it back into one. But, it is undeniable that the cracks are still existing inside your heart. 

A broken stone even you put it back. 

不再胡闹，不再忽视，我的感觉

She changes a lot compared to last time. She is turning into the one that I am looking for.

Times give me a joke. No matter how hard I work, she would not be the acceptable one for me. But, when seperation, she can be that one.

I do not plan for anything. But, I just want to be honest to my feeling. Lets move gradually. Never try, never know. 

I do not want to give up at the beginning.