hope to give up, but it is impossible to do that

I have 4 more years to live at Melbourne. But, I already start to consider the decision of giving up everything at here and go back to Malaysia. This is not because I cannot live alone at here. The total expenditure at here really press me seriously until I cannot breath. Maybe someone will say that the money is not yours, but your dad. There is no reason for me to worry about that.

Dad's business is not going so well nowadays. Hopefully, I can help him to reduce his burden. Taking the whole family as burden is not a easy task.

Obviously, I already feel regret when I had reached Melbourne two months ago.

A friendly reminder want to be given to anyone who is going oversea. If you do not have confident about your study, please do not plan to study abroad. When you are studying at oversea, the issues are not only relate to your study, but also financial crisis. Regarding your study, you are expected to get full mark in every test. A only pass is not more your target.

I wish that I can go back to Malaysia and persuit my degree study at Taylors. Also, I can be with yuen too. We are not away from each other. We will not face the problem about the difference in time zone.

I miss you , Yuen.

Currently, I am feeling bad now after I have talked to my mum about the problems, especially the financial support for my study. I really feel bad about that and sorry about everythings I said before.